greatest fear

Tell me about your greatest fear.

I’m scared that I am becoming the person who invests his whole heart on people but is also too easy to abandon and forget.

I’m scared of being watched failing over and over again and see everyone turn their backs on me.

I’m scared of not being able to be there for someone who calls me for help because that is how I think people are going to keep me.

I’m scared that I’m constantly making wrong decisions the reason why I can’t have the things I want.

I’m scared of the possibilities of not being able to write or dance or film or express myself in ways that will show a part of me into the world.

I’m scared that I won’t be able to leave a mark that someone will recognize that it is mine.

I’m scared of what I’ve done in the past that people are going to use against me anytime they want to.

I’m scared that one day, I’ll fight for my last breaths thinking about all the chances I missed just because I was afraid of trying.

I’m scared that when I watch myself reach the end of the line, I will see more people than I see when I’m still alive. Jakko finally wrote on a piece of paper his therapist has given him twenty minutes ago.

I‘m scared of living and getting to wake up the next morning not knowing why I have to.